Just needed to get this off my chest. Stay tuned for more fun things like the amazing trip to Utah, spiritual improvements, the kids first concert and photography opportunities.
Wow have I been slacking on blogging. You would think that with being unemployed I would have more time on my hands to do such. It has been 5 weeks since I lost my job. I have submitted over 30 applications/resumes and have only had 1 interview. Holy crap!! I've NEVER had any kind of issue finding a job. But I've also never been unemployed in an economy like this. The state finally made a decision that I do qualify for unemployment, so I can breathe a bit easier now. I was recently blessed with 2 photography gigs, of which I'm EXTREMELY grateful. I registered my domain name, and am in the process of getting a site up and running. I find myself so tired of looking at the computer screen after hours of job searching and picture proofing, that my desire to work on the site just isn't there. In fact, the only reason why I'm blogging now is that I can't sleep.
I miss doing my job. I DO NOT miss the drama, gossip, office politics, etc. But I really do miss interacting with patients. I feel like I would be very rusty if I tried to refract (1 or 2) someone today. I will also have the competition of new graduating students from the vision program next month. Even though this isn't the situation I was expecting to find myself in, I think I'm holding up fairly well.
My pain has been slowly creeping back into my life. I haven't been swimming lately. Mostly because anytime I'm holding my breath or straining in even the slightest bit, I get VERY light headed and feel like I'm going to pass out. I've had a swollen lymph node on my neck since December and I finally got it checked out. There is no malignant characteristics of this, and my doctor states it isn't related to my episodes of feeling faint. So my doctor wants me to do more blood work this week. (This is why I'm awake because I have to stay off my sleeping medication that dehydrates me for several days so the poor person drawing my blood has a fighting chance, lol.) So yet again, I feel like my doctor is ignoring symptoms I'm having and is dismissing them. I know the difference between feeling dizzy from low iron or blood sugar and what I'm feeling now. It is not normal to feel the way I am by doing the following things: bending over to pick something up, leaning my head forward or down to stretch my neck, carrying groceries up the stairs, shaving my legs, stretching on an exercise ball and many more. I purposely had not gone to my doctor for several months until the lump on my neck wouldn't go away. So yet again, I'm faced with the dilemma of not having any faith in my doctor and trying to find a new one.
Sorry for the rant, but it feels good to get these thoughts out. I should really start a personal electronic journal.
